To all u guys out there, treat ur partner right cause u dont know when u will lose them.

Just ended a 2 years relationship.

Though deep down i know we weren't meant for each other (we possess totally different traits), I am already missing her.

I still remember the first time she came over my house, we had so much fun and laughter, with her makeup and all. Laughing like crazy even while we waited for her grab car to come at the carpark. Its STILL just so vivid in my mind.

If only life was simpler, if only we were younger, if only..

I am sorry, for not being everything that u dreamed of. for not being the guy u wanted me to be.

Dont start to regret losing ur love ones folks, cos u asked for it.

Finally over!

Wow. It's been like 3 years since I updated the blog! Think I'm finally over her now. Took that long huh. Been going out with this girl recently. She's quite nice but doesn't know how to speak mandarin. i detect American accent? It's very enjoyable spending time with her, but too bad she's already attached. There's so much to talk about when u meet someone new. The next day after I woke up, it all felt like a dream. Too good to be true. It didn't happen just once. My 3rd time feeling it already. Oh well, back to friendzone again I guess.

I just texted her and said not to contact each other today. And deleted all photos of her off my facebook. Wondered if i did the right thing. I wanted to be freed of the pain and sadness that is welling inside of me. but part of me wants her too. She no longer cares about me. She found a new partner. I just came back from Batam with mum. We waited for Dad at Macdonalds, who promised to pick us up at 5pm. We reached HBF centre at 4.25pm and i text him to tell him we reached alr. We sat and waited for his text/call but it never came. 1 hour came. I asked mum to go home on our own instead of endlessly waiting. She refused. 2 hours came. She finally gave in and left with me. All this while she kept looking at the windows at Macdonalds at the Taxi stand, waiting and hoping that Dad would arrive soon, without saying anything. From the corner of my eye, i saw her wiped her eyes. I think she cried. I saw a reflection of myself all this time, we are both waiting for someone we love to quickly come. Both of us are Sagittarius horoscope, which makes us very sensitive to love. haiz.

I thought of her whole day today. Whatever thread, whatever line I'm hanging onto our relationship, whatever little glimpse of hope I have had disappeared. It's like someone just smacked me on the head hard. Today I changed the wallpaper of us together for the first time in more than like what, 2 years? Removed the pass code of the date we were together too 1912.

Everyday i dread the day of 14th feb. thats when u are leaving le. My wound opens up again. Its like breaking up once more. Every single night after we broke up, i think of you when i sleep. Will u think of me when u are there ma?

its 14 Jan. 1 more month u go le... self emo now. haiz... so fast!!! left 1 more month. If we were still together, if i ask u to stay, will u stay ma? i still miss u so much. Do spring cleaning at home, saw the precious stuffs u made for me, our first valentine day together, u made the straw hearts for me until ur hand pain pain, and u put into the monokuro boo box. Remember ma? Sweet memories just flowed into my head. We alighted on City hall on that day and u passed me, den i accidentally topple the box and all the hearts spilled on the floor and everyone was looking at us! hehe... And the mp4 that u bought for me, but i seldom use, i promise i will use it frequently one of these days ok? and still got the bracelet u got for me at jurong point cos u know i always wanted a bracelet. Bebe where are u? why did things turn out like that? im sorry for not maintaining our relationship well, im sorry for not spending more time with you. i miss u!!!! come back please?

It's 2013! A new year, a new start... It's around this time last year you broke up with me... I still think about you, wondering how are you, what are you doing now. You are going off to Australia soon le! 1 and a half more months more. Will u still think about me? Will forget me?

Today u asked me what I wanted for my bday. I said I wanted you to be happy. From the bottom of my heart I really wished that. U said not to make u cry, did u know I'm crying too? I hope u come back after 1 and a half years.. Will u miss me there ma?

We've been together so long already! Even before Facebook came out and there was only Friendster. I remember u ask me to add u on Facebook and everyday u will poke me on Facebook. Hehe so cutey. 现在想起来，心里觉得非常甜的。 I really wish time can go back sometimes

Still thinking of u. How?!?!?

I guess this is it already.. U are leaving Singapore to study in Aussie soon.. Sorry for keeping hold of u for so long, even though I know u didn't want it. This is the last happy special day I'm going to wish us.. Happy special day bee~ hope u are happy always

Happy special day!!! Came back from batam recently and I get remembered by the days we spent in Bali. All the happy happy moments.. Nvm, maybe it's a good thing we aren't together now.. I've got totally no time to be in a relationship.

why must this happen? its been some time already. i still MISS you, i still yearn for u, though i know its not possible.

Happy special day!! Our special day falls in the same time as hari raya!! Hehe.. Hope u had fun in sentosa.. Take Care ok?

After 1 week of reservist, I'm finally back to work again. Sian, Sebastian on leave, think he go Msia. Got to eat lunch with the pinoys. Luckily they all quite ok. Michael went back to phillipines. He borrowed a lot of money from lots of people Sying his dad is having an operation. Last time say his mum operation. Now the testers finished contract already but he has yet to pay them back. Hmmm. Wonder if he will leave sg for good? His gf pressure him to get married, so maybe it's for his wedding too. Lots of new faces in the office. I not here for 1 week and there are so many people I don't know. Got 1 girl look a lot like u bee. Not the current u. She looks like the past u when we first got together. When u tie ur hair ponytail and wear ur blue specs. She reminds me of u.

So busy recently.. Keep forgetting to post here, happy belated bdae to u bee!!! May all ur wishes come true! Still miss u. Tmr I'm booking in camp for reservist le. Please take care of urself ok? Drink lots of water and slp early! Nite nite! Owe u ur bdae present first ok? Hehe. Ur ear piece out of stock!!

Perhaps u thought I had forgotten about the 19th already huh... But I did not.. It's always itched deeply in my mind.. Missing u.

It's that day of the month again.. Happy special day bee! Wish I still have u.. Miss u!

Sometimes I just miss u so much. Think of all the times we had together,all that we've been through. U were my pillar of strength, u gave me courage to overcome whatever i dread cos i know u are by my side, encouraging me to go on. And now it's gone. I wish u were a member of my family.. There's problems I want to discuss with u, but I can't because it's private.. How I wish u were here.. Today u called me sound disappointed that I wasn't able to eat the burger king groupon offer with u.. It seems so nostalgic.. The sad and Dulan tone in your voice.. It almost seemed like we are a couple once more.. Take care of urself ok? I don't know what I'm doing anymore sometimes.. I miss u.

After 1 year plus didnt blog le. By now our relationship has already deteriorated to just friends. Every 19th of the month i would wish u Happy special day instead. But now, i dont feel the need to do that anymore. Dunno if u will ever forget this special day, the 19th of every month, will u think about me like im thinking of u? WIll u remember that u share this special day with someone? Ever since u said u dont have the mood now to be in a relationship, i respect ur decision, which is why I'll wish u here ba. Happy special day bee. Sorry, i still miss u and cant forget u.