hopefully this skin can tahan the song coding im about to input later on. err. but the more i look at it, the more i hate it. tmd. sian. better let me input my song codings inside. later cannot work im gg to take my keyboard and smash it against the monitor. ZZ.
Hmm. Lyn, u, as well as me, we both know that im not replying u in msn. Do u know that everytime i see ur name in msn, it pains me so? But at the same time i dun want to delete u cos i still miss u.. Every nite in bed was spent thinking of u, but forcing myself to quickly brush away that feeling and think abt other thing else.
I thought i can really concentrate on my lvling in maple during my sch holidays. realli anticipating this moment for a few months already. before my working attachment half a year earlier, and i kept telling myself how many more months to go before my holidays start. 3 months gone by the time my attachment ends. 3 more months left in sch to do my Final Year Project.
Well, looks like i now no longer have a chance to do that.
To be honest, u are the main reason why i cannot continue maple. Of course there are other reasons too, but again, mood comes into play ba. i tried not to think of u when i log in. its impossible. the maps i trained in, i think of u. i got out of there, i went to other places to hunt. i see ur new guild. i see ur members. everywhere. i see nick. i see mua. i see that guild everywhere. i got out of Ossyria. i went to Victoria, to initiate a ks war. Something i dun really do in the past. and again, that guild has to appear. and i think of u.
Just now i logged in to find a fren in maple. and i saw ur mega. seems i cant avoid certain things.
Last week, jin told me he has to go over to malaysia. the word malaysia agains refreshes my mind. he told marcus to put in my guild notice. Guess wad? He went to Malacca. The pain that strike in my heart. u know how it felt? my tears, cant help falling now.
nvm that. as long as u are happy thats all that matters.
follow your heart.
but give me time. i need some time. time to heal the wounds. the pain. its not ur fault. i didnt really blame u or wad. its all in the past... ni kai xin jiu hao..
i dont know if u are reading this post in my blog because i dun dare to enter ur blog. reading ur blog will remind me of things i dun want to see or will make my heart falter again.
as eleen says, "im tired for now.. it has drained me of my mind, my energy. i dun think i want a relationship again. at least not for now."
im still wearing the ring. might be stupid to you.. but it holds sentimental value to me.
thank you for ur concern.. i know u care.. u take care too..
this is one pic i promised to hold up but never had the chance to do that.. taken in sch around 2 months back.
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