Its freaking difficult for me to lvl now. Every death i earned makes me slam the mouse and bangs the keyboard. Deaths at lvl X9 aint a joke. 1 Death means an extra 1 hour+ grinding for u. Which means that u trained and wasted ur time for nothing for the past 1 hour. i died 4 times yesterday.

Today went out to Steamboat wif some of my guild members.
These are how some of them look like:
Neh Neh (Kyzumi/Eldora) and his gf (like slping o.O)


JiTaoZham/BaoQingTian and QinCaiZham/XiaoYaoWang


Others present in today's outing in steamboat at Marina South were: ShadowKaze, Qiuyun, myself EvilBatmanReturn, SnowRose, Shoyryu, yandao. total 10 ppl.
den after dinner yandao, rose and shoy went off and den the rest of us went cine to the ninth floor and the neh neh's gf said can go rent a room and watch DVD and got 2 coms for u to use. so ok lor. 7 ppl chiong inside the small crammed room and 5 ppl watch the show and me and qin played Dota on the com. 4 v 4 wif other players. and won. lols. den win liao switch ppl, den i watch show. something abt girl want to be a man or smth, abt soccer de. show is ok. lots of kisses by the ang mohs actors and actresses. all in college de.

after that Kaze drove us back home. he's a nice guy. talk abt Hero a lot. haha. actually today talk more on game than anything else. he had to drive qin and JTZ back to hougang den qiuyun to serangoon and me to bishan. den he drove back home to Toa Payoh. thanks man.

Didnt really write my blog much nowadays. Was kinda moody these few days. not a lot of ppl view it anyway. maybe the loyal ones in my tagboard does. thank you all.

And.
I missed someone a lot.
A lot.
She reflects a lot on me i realised. More than anything. I looked at the screensaver on my hp and it reminds me of the moments we had.
I looked at the picture when i restarted my phone. The wrenching in my heart is indescribable. Every moment now and then, i would be thinking how u are doing now. If we didnt meet in game the first time, would i have gotten to know u?

And.
Did u know? im shedding my tears for u now.
im crying.
and i dont know why the pain is so great my tears keep flowing down. i cant stop it.
Remember the letter i sent u?
All i ask is for ur happiness.
i would give up anything. ANYTHING. Just to make u happy.
Damnit. DAMNIT! IT FREAKING HURTS ME.
Please i beg u.. i beg. stop le..
my shirt is wet now. with tears.
i miss u.

i know probably im nothing more to you than a friend.
but to me, u are much more, much closer than that.
few months down the road, i wouldnt be around anymore.
in army. i wouldnt be coming online that often.
i hope u will take care of yourself. stay happy and cheerful. the one and only mesmorising image in my mind i have. u will stay in my mind always. forever live in my heart.

goodbye.

This song is one of your favourites. When i listen to this song everytime. i think of u. It describes my feelings.
I dont want to lose you.