I can consider today as another one of my unlucky days.
I had a rather bad day. Things werent going on well as i hoped it would everyday.
Projects. Stay back. Assignments. Due to submit draft on this date. Tutorials to be done tmr. Use case diagrams. 8 of them. not done yet. Leader pushing. Sequence Diagrams for all 8 of them. Not done yet. Thinking of attributes and codings for Project. Not done. Consent form not taken from yf. Practical lab sessions cant follow them up. Student Attendent System send Warning letter about my absense for National Education, which i attended but never marked my attendance cos i didnt know where to and no one told me.

im getting fed up. i aint feeling good. im angry. Ting smsed me and scolded me how come i took so long to reply her. i flared up. i admit ive been feeling a little nasty. even showed weilin some attitude. sry guys. but i guess ive got to control my temper a little. been under too much things lately. hope u guys can forgive. im having strikes of headache. comes and goes quickly. sharp pain in head. den gone. den some time later it comes again. i had this when i was taking my PSLE last time. Doc said it was stress.
But im not going to fall and let loose under stress. Not when someone is also under stress. Not when her's is much greater than mine. Not when she can bravely faced them all. Fang~~~ jiayou wor!! got me pei ni yi qi stress...
(V)O.-(v) XD

13 more days. till we can all go out together. im anticipating that moment. 13 more.. pls let it pass quickly god... sigh.

after sch, stayed back to discuss projects with members. den went to AMK jubilee arcade. play wad game oso all went wrong. none of the games i played i am satisfied. cursed. swore. on the way out, i wanted to play a last game of Daytona. that bunch of 7 or 8 girls there keep on tapping the card. play 3 games straight in a row. i was waiting for them to leave so that i can play. after their 3rd tapping of card on the reader. i left. resigned myself to today's fate.

met mama at Prime and ate dinner wif her. tats nice. the last time we tried to eat outside, i flared up too. because she was hesistating this and that and dunno wad to eat. den forget it. go back home and cook. i walked ahead of her. till when i turned back my head and i couldnt see her. i felt guilty, at losing my top. stupid move.
i've always been impatient. damn. im hurting the people around me.

in school, i see a gal everytime in labs, in lectures. she reminds me of ***. exactly. height, charactoristics, clothings and her face features. im sad. it just struck me ive never had this kind of feeling for some time. My heart felt heavy. the feeling i felt when she first left me. Ive been trying my best. My very best to forget her. but it just aint that simple. wounds might heal. but scars remain. and a deep one you left me.

Am i supposed to be happy that u left me for another guy? Funny. Words came out of my mouth never seems to hold any truth in them. I wished u best of luck and everlasting love with him.
My heart.
it Bleed.

Blast. im crying again. Stupid me.
I cant go on like this. i know. Freak. i hate myself. I only wished i wasn't so emotional. i want to lie down. and Rest. im tired. real tired...