sry I hasn't been updating my blog a lot... all I got to say was, I'm on outfield so many days I've been biten everywhere by mozzies. -.- I hate my CSM encik. I think he has got a grudge against me or SMTh... so many problems happen in camp. lost so many things dun even noe how much total cost. die liao. gortex jacket and helmet also can lost ...

there's this dread feeling of gg back to camp everytime when its time to book in.. I thought I've long passed that feeling already.. now its back.. last time, I felt I was the king of the world. able to handle all types of stress and I'm not afraid of all field camps, let it come la, so what? confinement give me I also not scared.. but all these has ceised already. why? why dun I had that kind of courage anymore?

another thing, I've been feeling very guilty at home. mum ask me to do things I very by shuang.. lazy. only want to play game. play for wad sia... in the end also sure quit one wad.. sigh. I'm screwed. my mindblock getting more and more.. die la, ah jieeeeeeeeee! I think I inherited ur sotongness Liao..